This is Dream Date number 10.
We go and see a film about the financial crisis. Your suggestion, which I really like because it makes me think you must be kind of serious. I wonder all the way through the film if you are also wondering whether we could get away with touching each other in some way. Arms alongside each other on the armrest, knees touching as if by accident, that kind of thing. I quite want to hold your hand but I don’t know you very well yet and I don’t want to distract you from the film. Afterwards, you suggest that we get something to eat, which is great because it means that you can’t want to get rid of me just yet? While we’re waiting for our food, I start to worry that we’re going to disagree about the film, and you’ll realise that I am a shallow and a frivolous person. But we don’t disagree about the film, so then I start to worry that you’ll think that we’re not different enough… distinct enough. And maybe you’ll think that I’m being sycophantic in some way? Which I’m not but… I do really like you so it’s not like it’s totally out of the question. We are at the restaurant for quite a long time and… I feel like it’s going quite well. We split the bill. I don’t know how I feel about that. I think it’s OK. And then, we’re both walking in the same direction. I’m going to get on the Tube, you’re going to get a bus. And we both stop talking. And, at first I think “Oh shit. We’ve still got quite a long way to go before we get to the Tube. This is going to be really awkward.” And I turn my head towards you a little just to check… And maybe you catch the movement in the corner of your eye because you turn your head as well and then I step forward and we’re kissing. And I’m holding on to you and I find that I’m trembling, which is so embarrassing because… it’s not cold. It has nothing to do with being cold. I’m just… it feels so good to hold on to you. You’re so… present. And warm. And it is so nice to kiss you. And I think… if I wasn’t holding on to you, I might actually fall over. A man walks past us. I think he must be a bit drunk. He says something about us being in love and that we should look after each other. I mean… it’s just a first date. I don’t even know if you’re going to want to see me again. This kind of stuff might happen to you all the time.